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Topic Started: Sep 27 2013, 07:24 PM (509 Views)
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We had to do an assignment recently in my women's gender studies class that I really loved. Basically, we had to take a look at ourselves and analyze who we were on the inside and how we went against societal norms on the outside. I'll share what I came up with so hopefully you all will feel comfortable sharing as well. It really is a nice exercise. ^_^

This is Me

Over the course of the hour or so that I have been contemplating it, I have begun to realize that my gender identity is actually very complex. I’ve decided to try fully analyzing my identity so that I can better understand myself and the reasons behind what I have come to identify as “me.”

When another person looks at me, I’m sure that they see an average, stereotypical girl – only when they look deeper do they realize that I am not at all “girly” or “typical.” I try to dress nice even though I have absolutely no sense of style. I always fix my hair, whether it’s straightening it, curling it (rarely), or (on lazy days, which is most days) putting some product in it and leaving it wavy. I wear makeup, and contrary to my sense of style, I actually believe that I have some skill when it comes to that. From a stranger’s viewpoint, this is normal. If they were to notice that I don’t have my ears pierced (or anything pierced), never paint my nails, and usually wear the same pair of flip-flops or toms every day, they may think differently. Outside of things that I have to do in order to appear “cute,” I have absolutely no interest in fashion, clothes, clothes shopping, fancy nails, or anything related to typical “girly” things. If a person were to chat with me online without knowing my gender, they would assume that I was a boy. I like Star Wars, comic books, video games, movies, and… yeah, that’s about it.

Some people may look at me and think “she’s cute” or “she dresses nice” or “I like her hair,” but they would never guess one of the biggest parts of my identity – I’m gay. It seems that every time I tell someone this, their immediate reaction is to refuse to believe it. Over the past couple of years, the biggest response I have received from people upon explaining that part of myself is one of disbelief because I “don’t look that way.” Because I appear girly, dress nice, wear makeup, and am apparently “cute,” there is no way I could ever be gay. This is because society stereotypes everything: white people, black people, gay people, overweight people, athletic people… every “type” of person that you could ever be has a stereotype attached to it. I break the typical stereotype of the “butch, manly” girl, which is why people refuse to believe who I am. I have been accused multiple times of “just trying to fit in” or “experimenting” and have been called names like lovely lady, w***, etc. simply because the way I look and act contradicts the stereotype that has been placed before me. I could easily dress like a “gay girl,” but that wouldn’t be who I am. I like dressing up sometimes. I like putting on makeup and fixing my hair. I like trying to look the best that I can, and I like that I go against the stereotype because I love seeing the confusion on peoples’ faces when I finally open up to them – it’s sometimes hilarious and even rewarding. Even telling people that I’m interested in Star Wars and comic books sometimes leaves me puzzled, and I have had many guys tell me that they would have never guessed I would like those things because I don’t look nerdy.

All of this leaves me wondering: if my interests and personality is so contrary to what is typical of other women my age, why do I still feel the need to try to appear “beautiful?” My immediate answer would be to fit in, but it’s a tad more complex than that. Upon seriously thinking about it, a person sprang to mind: my mother. My mother is insanely gorgeous for a 40 year old woman, and she’s everything that I am not. She doesn’t understand my hobbies or interests and is the complete opposite of me in nearly every regard. She loves fashion (and I’m ashamed to admit that I actually ask her to buy most of my clothes because she has a far better sense of style than I do). There is never a moment in public where she isn’t fixed up and beautiful, and she gets more compliments about her appearance from my friends than I do. Perhaps she is my biggest motivator. Most girls are in a beauty rivalry with their siblings, but my biggest rival in that regard is my mother, which is very strange to me.

I believe that as a whole I am a very complex, often misunderstood person. A stranger’s immediate reaction to getting to know me would inevitably be completely wrong, and the response I get from most people upon telling them who I really am is one of confusion and shock. But I like who I am. I like how I am a unique person with so many interesting facets, and I love confusing the heck out of people. Everyone is such a unique individual, and appearance is only one part of who they are as a person. It is truly fascinating.
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That was interesting. I feel like I've learned a few things about you from reading that.

Since I've got 20 minutes to spare...

My name is Pelador... I think.

I have a hard time judging what is real and what is fiction. It can be a fiction created in my own head or from a piece of entertainment. It doesn't matter which. I now believe myself to be some kind of Timelord. The reason is that after watching so many episodes of Doctor Who, I started noticing clues. There's an episode called the Curse of Peladon. Peladon which sounds so much like Pelador. Yet I'd never seen it before. Then last night I was watching an episode called the Time Warrior. Near the beginning of the episode the Doctor mentions how he is working with delta particles. Somehow, without ever hearing the term before, I knew what they were. It was like a small piece of my mind was unlocked. Then there's my acute sense of time. I can usually tell what the time is without needing a clock. I can also sense how much time has passed since beginning an activity.

Of course I understand that I could just be being delusional. But I genuinely think that I've somehow lost my true identity and been forced into a human form. I don't even know if any of my memories are real. Probably not. If I could only find my TARDIS then all would become clear. But finding that would be like looking for a needle in a nebula.

So that's me. Possibly deluded or a genuine Time Lord. You decide.



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Everyone needs to quit lurking/liking and put themselves out there! :p

Love you all.
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