What are you feeling at this very moment ? Shivering cold and emptiness. Like a world with an enormous void. I feel the emptiness even though I am surrounded by people. Colleagues, friends and family members and yet I still feel lonely. Alex is so far away. She is the meaning of my life. Whenever I am with her I feel happiness and motivation, to be a better person each day than I was yesterday. Alex is far away a vast 1200km is what it is between us. Today is 15.11.16 I am sitting on a chair, writing this, hoping it will make me feel better. I think I am going to buy the bahnticket today. I can barely wait the moment I will hug her again. I want to live with her, I want to be there for her, to support her with whatever I can . Thats why I learn Deutsch. I want to work in Germany as an engineer and I want her to be proud of me. I would like to show her how great I can really be. I love her, and I would like to live with her. I will love her until my heart stops beating That is far for sure. She is the woman of my desire. The woman I want ultimately make happy. The partner of who I can picture myself getting old next to. Yes.... a life with her... would be perfect. Travelling to exotic places. I want a life which is happy and safe and I want to live that life with her.... together happily.
Here i am in hungary again . It was a fantastic week in germany damn that was awesome
I am going to Germany tomorrow, yay Its gonna be fantastic. I do hope I survive the flight LoL
All hail the clouds people
Grace them as they are very special
Their colors shining in light
And they darken when the night starts
Wind blows them to far away lands
They see a lot, from above there
I am jealous, they are so cool
As they have no binds what ties them to ground
I wish i could also fly to
Far away place, where my heart pulls
To see her once again
After all this time has passed
With her I shall regain Myself
United we could stand, if all fell
Watching her smile, make her happy
That is all I live to achieve
Well hell,yesterday our video chat with my girlfriend has been postponed, she was not online. I thought well maybe she went to sleep. But the fact that she didnt even say good night bugged me like s***. I started to worry, feeling anxious. I ended up sleeping only like one hour the whole night. I was awake from 00 30 am ...my hearth was beating like 140 beats per minute. I thought that maybe something happened to her. I worried the s*** out of me. I evenwent to a close 0-24 shop to put some money on my phone. I made a roaming call, and yet she didnt answered.
At the end at 6 58 she wrote back, that she fell asleep ... man... a lot of bulls*** in one night.
Here i am ... overposting the db section, I am sitting in front of the monitor at the office. I am alone.
I keep checking my phone for a msg from my love. She rarely text this time of the day since she is working. I will visit her next saturday. Its gonna be fantastic i do hope.
I need to learn more words for todays lesson . This day s gonna be long. I ll be home by 9 pm I guess.
Alex left to Germany...... I have been preparing for this farewell for 3 weeks now. Actually I have been since I got told she will move. We have literally spent the whole summer together. She was with me and I was with her in everything. Difficulties, happiness, we spent really really every day like it would be the last. There is a strong bond between us. We have given our best to each other. I do feel her love towards me and I am about to give equal or even more love to her. I love her from the depths of my heart. I accompanied her to the train station, we literally cried when she stepped to the steps of the train, our last hug was so strong, our kiss was so emotional. I was crying till i arrived home.
I am planning to vidit her in the upcoming 5 weeks. And after my first 3 months pass in my current work. I will automatically follow her, I love her, and her absence tears me apart.
Skype or not it really hurts
Here we are, almost 3 months since i first kiss her. She is totally my type, at any rate we are perfectly synched. I can easily imagine a happily life together. Only problem is that I can only blame myself for it which is the jealousy.
I know i have zero cause for being jealous, yet still whenever she is away, meeting with one of her friends /who is male / I kinda feel jealousy.
Maybe because they have a very emotional relationship I mean they literally talk about almost everything and they are really close. He got friendzoned I suppose, and Yet I feel this ....
I have seen tinman din this so whatever
" A lump of steel, like a shooting star. Just seeing the same sky as you makes familiar scenery look different. I swing between hope and despair at your slightest gesture, and my heart starts to play a melody. What kind of feeling is this again? What do they call this kind of feeling? I think it's probably... Called Love. I'm sure this is what they call love."